Once More With Feeling
Posted by chrystibella on November 17, 2008
One of my absolutely favorite people on YouTube.
This is from Once More With Feeling, the Buffy musical episode.
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Posted by chrystibella on November 16, 2008
So, after having my bad hair experience and many tears, today was much better.
I shampooed my hair and some of the red faded and it now looks more Auburn and less radical red. I didn’t put any hair products in my hair and just blow dryed it by running my hands through it so that it layed down a bit more. It doesn’t look as bad today.
My mom let me pick out a hat from her Etsy store. I chose this one.
Hunter Green 100% Virgin Wool Cap. Has a gently curving brim — an open roll — and the brim is flaired in the back. Lots of texture… which I tend to love.
The flower is a magenta camelia type with 5 petals in two rows and rayon, nylon pink center. There are two woodsy green leaves and one bud with a small leaf on the stem.
I received compliments when I was wearing the hat this evening. Not just from women, but one of my male friends said he really liked the hat and that it looked good on me. He’s funny. He took off his hat and wore mine for a little while (just joking around) but he said he did really like it.
Of course I was encouraged that my hair didn’t look as bad as I thought it did and that it will grow back. One friend even said that she didn’t notice my hair, she noticed my smile.
Today was a better day thanks to my mom and my friends. It IS nice to be loved.
Sphere: Related ContentEver notice how the worse the hair cut is, the more the people working at the salon will tell you how cute it looks?
Posted by chrystibella on November 15, 2008
I went for a haircut yesterday and there was a BIG MISCOMMUNICATION with the stylist and I ended up with a buzz cut. I have less than a centimeter of hair all over and on top it sticks straight up looks like a bird. I have about an inch of hair on the top.
The stylist kept gushing about how CUTE this looked on me, and I was TOO fucking polite not to cry right then and there. Even Brad was shocked but he didn’t say anything because I didn’t say anything. Then he was pissed because he said he would not have paid for it and he wanted to go back and complain and get his money back. It was only a $9.99 cut. I don’t care about the money. If they can’t give me my hair back, then there’s nothing to rectify the situation.
So, I have cried and I feel so UGLY and every time I walk by the mirror it is a shock.
I’m pissed at myself.
I will probably wear a hat for the next two months.
The hair cut is hideous so I don’t want to hear that it looks cute or anything about it. You don’t need to say anything.
Thank GOD my hair grows fast!
My head even feels COLD without any hair on the back. Wearing a hat isn’t just to cover up, it makes me feel like I have my hair. I look bad in the hats too but it’s better than this fucking buzz cut!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don’t understand what happened. I showed this woman a picture of how I wanted my bangs (which is NOTHING like this!) I thought she knew what she was doing and when she ran up the back of my head with the (whatever those things are called that they use on men) hedgers, and I saw all of my hair fall to the floor I went into shock. I think that is why I didn’t say how much I hated it. Then she was going on and on about how great it looked.
After leaving the salon, in shock, traumatized. I thought maybe a different color would make me look better. So I go in and pick up an auburn color. It turns out to be RED! So not only do I have a hidous hair style but it’s red. Not pretty.
This stylist does the hair for one of my friends, and does a good job. Everyone compliments my friends hair, and in fact that is how I happend to go to this stylist.
She cut my hair last time and did a good job.
What the hell happened???????
There’s nothing can be done to fix this, because I have no hair to fix.
I am traumatized enough, so PLEASE when you see me, don’t say anything about the hair.
Later we can have a good laugh but right now it’s not funny. To me anyway. Yet, I do look a fright and it is laughable. Would have made a great halloween look. Hopefully my hair will grow fast and I can do something with it soon.
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Posted by chrystibella on November 13, 2008
I’d like to open a bottle of wine without mutilating the cork or pushing it into the bottle!
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Posted by chrystibella on November 11, 2008
Your Primary Mythical Creature
Water Types
This is probably why I have always felt the need to have access to bodies of water. I don’t think I have ever lived beyond a few hours drive of the ocean in my life. When I think about the states in the middle of the USA, I often feel this dreadful feeling of being boxed in. I’m sure they have lakes and rivers that if I were to live there, I would go to, but there is just something about the ocean that relaxes me. The sound of the seagulls, the salty air, the waves crashing along the shore or onto the rocks. It mesmerizes my spirit and frees my mind.
When I lived in San Francisco I would often take my lunch hour and get a sandwich and drive down and sit in my car facing the ocean while I ate my lunch. It relaxed me. Then I’d head back to the office.
Now that I live in Sacramento, it takes an hour and a half drive to get there from here. I moved to Sac because the cost of living was cheaper but I do miss the bay.
I do have a huge aquarium in my living room. =) Oh, and candles. I MUST have candles. The mood of the room feels so good when there are candles. My husband drives me crazy because he could sit in his recliner in the dark with just the tv going. Sometimes I wonder what the hell I’m doing with this guy because we have NOTHING in common. It frustrates the shit out of me. We are like night and day. He’s a good man though and treats me exceptionally well. I probably am more of a pain in the ass to live with than he is. He thinks I’m silly with my candles.
The main strength of the Water types is feeling. The second element indicates the most probable focus for this emotional expression.
Emotional? Am I emotional? LOL!!! I run on emotions baby! I drive myself and everyone around me crazy with my emotional ups and downs.
Chimera
Water with FireAstrologically associated with Cancer and the Fourth HouseChimera types are motivated to achieve and maintain emotional closeness between themselves and those they are close to. They are among the most outgoing of all the types. They have a strong sense of community harmony and cooperation. They are devoted to their family whether this is an actual family or a specially chosen group of like-minded individuals.
This is true. I may not always see eye to eye with my relatives but I do consider my friends as my family. They have been with me more over the years than my relatives have.
They thrive in company and are rarely alone.
I do like my alone time though, but even when I am secluded on my computer, I have many online friends who keep me company.
They find personal fulfillment in supportive nurturing and caring roles but they emphasize self-reliance for all. They are intensely protective of those they love and are both perceptive and intuitive regarding their needs. They can seem at times to be in a world of their own because of a capacity for reflection. They are very emotionally expressive which can seem like “gushing” to other more restrained types.
Yeah, I gush.
I found the quiz on Llewellyn’s website.
If you are afraid of getting your heart broken…
Posted by chrystibella on November 10, 2008
…then you are not ready to become a parent.
In tonight’s episode of Brothers and Sisters, Robert says this to Kitty when she confides that she is so afraid of allowing herself to feel hopeful about an upcoming adoption. She’s been let down before. She cannot bear to have her heart broken again.
If you are afraid of getting your heart broken then you are not ready to be a parent.
No truer words were ever spoken.
I have only been pregnant one time in my life. I sailed through with no complications. I remember every milestone and even had moments that were captured forever in my memories. The first time I felt him kick. Like a flutter of butterflies soft and light. Amazing. My life’s purpose was no longer my own.
Labor was a bitch and so was I. It seemed to go on f o r e v e r!!!! The first time I held him, all was forgotten and all that mattered was this new life with everything to look forward to. This gift, this precious gift from God. That ride home from the hospital, I think we drove 25 mph. LOL!!! Weary of every vehicle around us. Me sitting in the back seat guarding my angel. I wonder how many new parents take that approach on that first trip in the car with a new infant?
All of a sudden I joined the “baby” club. Anywhere I went that there was anybody carrying a baby carrier, we had to stop and exchange stories and compare how many months old they were, were they sleeping through the night, cute stories, etc. I called it the baby club. =)
As parents we are with our children through all of their firsts. We experience their first words, first steps, first friendships, everything. We are first in their eyes too. They cry when we are apart and run to us with delight as soon as we are in sight smothering us with hugs and kisses. Ah, the feel of my son’s heavy head on my shoulder when he was a toddler. So many times I carried him and his sweaty cheek would rest against my neck. His voice, “Mommy!” Oh, how I miss that little child.
There were times that I had to push him in the direction of depending on himself. I had to stop wiping his butt, for example. LOL!!! All of a sudden I recall the days when I’d hear, “Mommy…. come wipe my butt.”
The time flew by so fast. So many things I didn’t get to do. Many things I long for. Things I wish I had done better. I wanted more time.
Time doesn’t stop. He’s approaching 19 now. Grown into his own person and is itching to move out on his own. He’s ready.
This day was bound to happen.
Heartbreaking? Hell YES it’s heartbreaking!
For sometime, I’ve no long been there to experience many of the “firsts”. He confides in others now. His aunt (my sister) gets to be the cool one. Though she has different standards for HER daughter, as she is parent and not friend.
Sometimes I’m lucky to have him tell me stuff that’s going on or about his friends. There is the parent barrier always there though. It hurts. I know it’s normal, but it hurts the same. Sometimes when he confides in me about stuff he and his friends do, it’s stuff I really don’t want to hear. I do want to hear, but I don’t. But I do. As a parent, I can’t always be cool, or his friend.
Our relationship is transitioning.
He’s grown. He does grown up stuff now. The same stuff I did and many people did when they were 19 years old. All I can hope for is that I raised him and taught him enough to be sensible and make good choices. But really, at 19?
At 19 I thought I knew it all. (Technically he won’t be 19 until May so he’s 18 1/2)
In a couple of months he’s moving 3 hours away to live with roommates and attend college. It won’t be as easy (financially) as it has been living at home, but he needs/wants to be on his own. I worry about him smoking pot and doing drugs, drinking and ruining his health. Kids party. It’s a fact of life and right now life is one big party cause this is his first time being free of parental control.
He pretty much knows it all too. I cannot tell him much or give advice because I’m not as smart or worldly as he is. Hopefully by the time he gets older I’ll get smarter and wiser too. =)
I think God created teenagers to help parents get through the transition. Yes, there are many things that I will be happy to not have to deal with. In some ways I am looking forward to my freedom. I can walk around the house naked if I want to. My husband and I will have more time to get to know each other again. Having teens around kind of kills the opportunity for romance.
It’s bittersweet when children grow up. I look at him and feel melancholy often. Feeling the loss of my little boy. Missing the bond between mother and child. I’ll always remember his little husky voice, the cute mannerisms and the feel of him sleeping in my arms. I’ll never stop praying that nothing bad happens to him out there in the world on his own; trusting that he’ll make choices that will get him through college and have a long prosperous and happy life with a family of his own. Hopefully I will be lucky and he’ll marry a woman I like and get along with.
And so today, I think back to that first trip in the car leaving the hospital when he was a newborn infant and how I was so fiercely protective. Heart breaking? You bet it is!
Please God! Keep him safe!
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The Girl Has P E R S O N A L I T Y! Not Just Another Pretty Face…..
Posted by chrystibella on October 27, 2008
My YouTube Pick Is…… meekakitty
This girl is so funny she always makes me laugh. Tessa is a professional model in New York. Her video blogs (vlogs) show what it’s like to travel and do photo shoots from all around the world.
Tessa doesn’t take herself too seriously, she goofs off with her video camera at home and will have your rolling over laughing with her wit and charm. Whether she’s lip sincing, dancing or talking about her day, she’s a hoot! LOL! You can watch more by clicking on them or go to her channel and subscribe if you are a true (meaning you have a channel on YT) YouTuber like me. =)
What I love about her the most is that she seems genuine. She’s not trying to be sexy. She doesn’t need to try. She just is, and not in a slutty way. Sometimes she wears these big glasses that are really dorky though she pulls it off with supreme style in her own funky way. She’s adorable!
Here’s one of my favorites, or maybe a favorite favorite would be a better term. They’re all entertaining. Aw…. I can’t really say which is my fave. You’ll have to watch them yourself. You can watch all of them by subscribing to her you tube channel at http://www.youtube.com/user/meekakitty.
This is from her “Live from Hong Kong” series:
Enjoy!
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Posted by chrystibella on October 22, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! I got lots of email cards from things I’m signed up for. My mom sent her wishes days ago in case she forgot. LOL! I told her not to worry, I might forget too. But, alas, that won’t happen with all the e-cards and my space stuff. =)
My husband asked me what my favorite cake was. I told him carrot cake. Now he has this thing about when he asks me a question and if I don’t give him an answer he likes he keeps asking the the question as if he never heard my answer. This goes on when we talk about where we want to grab something to eat, what TV show we want to watch, what KIND of pizza to order. I know he doesn’t like carrot cake, well he doesn’t like the nuts and raisins. So he keeps saying how much he loves german chocolate cake then proceeds to ask me again, what IS my favorite cake. I say again, carrot cake. This could go on forever. =)
What a nice surprise this morning when I was having my coffee and I heard a commotion of the birds. Usually the finches are in the trees and sometimes they fight over the food that we put out for the birds. So at first I paid no attention to it. Then I heard this “caw caw caw” sound and I my cat was crouched down at the patio door like he was scared. I looked out and saw this big figure perched on the fence. Like a shadow that stood about a foot tall. I thought it was an owl at first but when I got a good look it was a cockatoo. Grey with salmon color around his head. As soon as he saw me he flew away.
I hope he made his way back home. I didn’t get to take a picture but I found one on flickr.com that is close.
Originally uploaded by cliff1066
Sphere: Related ContentTis the season…. for allergies and colds
Posted by chrystibella on October 20, 2008
Cough, cough, sniff, sniff, blow, blow…. Repeat
Gawd! Will this ever end? I feel like my head is going to pop right off!
I’m sick! I hate being sick!
I did manage to spend some time on my patio watering my plants and enjoying the beautiful day. It’s sunny and just the right temperature. I love days like this. Now if I could get over this cold, it would be perfection. =)
Photo from http://www.sxc.hu/profile/scol22
Sphere: Related ContentA Politically Correct Attitude Adjustment
Posted by chrystibella on October 19, 2008
POLITICS! I hate politics.
Everywhere.
The office, the club, family, friends. Any organization has politics.
You can’t escape it.
There’s always a pecking order. It’s nice to be at the top but we all experience different levels. Often finding ourselves knocked on our ass.
I asked a friend of mine the other day how she deals with the politics of an organization we both belong to. Helen (not her real name) is always confident and carries on with her volunteer work unscathed by anything that’s going on with the political powers that be.
I am a *Life Member and have been with this organization for years. Some years we have officers who are wonderful, intelligent, thoughtful and gracious human beings who bring value and some years we have officers who are small minded people who do nothing but turn the place upside down. These are the times when I just want to throw my hands up in the air and say, “I quit!” “Who voted for these people?!!!!!”
It feels like they are working against me instead of with me.
Why?
Because if you do something and you do it well, there are always going to be some folks who want to see you fail. They’ll help you do it too!
I get fed up with that mentality sometimes and it eats away at me.
You may have noticed that I have to work REALLY HARD to stay positive. It doesn’t come naturally. It’s easier to be lazy and let the negative stuff occupy my head than to make an effort to think about the good things, to ground myself and force the negative stuff to leave my mind.
So I asked Helen how she does it. She told me that if she allowed what people say about her to affect her, she’d go crazy. LOL! She keeps in mind the people who need our services and why we do this. Our work is important outside of ourselves. She says to hell with the rest. She does what she does.
Good advice.
Well obviously, I’m allowing it to affect me and I’m going crazy. =) I think I go through this cycle every few years with this organization. I am the editor of their quarterly newsletter and the web site administrator so I am very much involved and I do my job well. There is a very small handful of people who are not happy about it and do not wish me success but if I worry about what they think then it’s making me hate what I do and I LOVE what I do. I should do what I do and to hell with the rest. Right?
My work is important to those who are in need of our services. I know that. (But still need to be reminded) It’s outside of my ego. But I still allowed other peoples’ insecurity to stimulate MY desire to be accepted and appreciated. I’m NOT the important one here, my work IS. I can be such an idiot when I let people get to me.
Helen is right. She’s the person I always go to when I need to whine. She always sets me straight and gets me back on my path. It’s important to have someone like Helen in our lives to pull us back or slap us silly when we begin to blubber. (I don’t mean that literally.) <grin>
I watched Sarah Palin on SNL and was thinking about how I even ranted about her. I gotta hand my respect to that woman for facing up to all of the crap everyone has thrown her way.
Politics are just plain nasty. It doesn’t matter if it’s at home, your workplace, organizations you belong to or your group of friends. It can get ugly and it takes a real strong, confident person to take it all with a grain of salt and let it roll right off their backs. I admire that in a person and I am going to work towards being that kind of person.
I’m still a supporter of Obama for President but I have to admit, I’m likin’ Sarah a lot more as a person. I thought she did well on Saturday Night Live. Yay! Sarah! You go girl!
* Life membership was gifted to me for all of my work for this organization. I am honored to have received this and the last thing I should do is second guess myself, but it happens. =)
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